What I Meant To Say (Deceit Duet Book 2) by M. Piper

Author:M. Piper [Piper, M.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2019-02-14T00:00:00+00:00

Taylor Black’s crazy girlfriend

“Well shit,” I say, trying to laugh and make fun of the topic. “Hey, they know I’m your girlfriend at least.” I smile and I hear him groan.

“Blake, don’t do this,” he pleads.

“It’s fine,” I say, clicking on an article. “People can’t be that mean.”

“They are and it’s not fine,” I hear him say but my eyes are stuck on the words and my stomach drops. There's a picture of my burned down house. The high school I attended. My senior year photo when there’s no life in my eyes. I can’t even focus on the words but I know it’s all there. All my secrets out to the public.

“Oh my God,” I whisper, the roars in my head getting louder. “Who did this?”

“I…fuck!” I hear a loud bang and wince. “Baby, are you at work?”

“I’m uh…no. I’m heading home. I’ll see you tonight.”

“Blake, don’t hang u—”

I end the call, trembling and trying to stand without my knees shaking. I pack up my computer and head for my car to go home, not stopping by Tanya’s office to thank her for picking up my slack. Not telling anyone in the office goodbye, I slip out the back door once I make it down to the lobby and almost run to my car.

Earbuds. Check.

Windows down. Check.

Sunglasses on. Check.

You can’t outrun me. And you don’t want to.

“I can,” I growl, hitting the gas harder than I should before hitting the interstate.

I don’t know where I’m going. I don’t know why I’m going this way. I just need to drive.

Maybe drive off that cliff. That’ll fix this whole situation.

A tear slips and I swipe it away angrily with trembling hands. I haven’t had to fight them away this hard in a long time. Years.

The scariest thing is not being in control but knowing what you’re doing is wrong. My mind doesn’t go when the voices win. I’m still there. But not as loud as I need to be. That’s what the medicine helps with. It helps me be in control.

I’ve only been out of control a couple times in my life.

The time I blacked out from it.

And the time in high school.

You’ve failed once, Blake. Don’t fail this time.

“Fuck off,” I growl, stomping on the gas harder, flying over any speed limit posted. I need wind. I need noise to drown them out.

I refuse to be as quiet as they need me to be.

With what feels like tunnel vision from trying to drown out the constant voices, I crank the music up louder and let the road take me. I don’t plan on being gone long. Just long enough to figure out how to get back to where I was a few months ago.

Fuck, being crazy isn’t fun.

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